Not Yet Mommy

The long journey towards parenthood…

Bloggity Blog Blog! October 13, 2010

Filed under: Uncategorized — Stephanie Marie @ 10:59 pm

First and foremost let me start out by saying that, yes, I know I suck at this whole “Wordless Wednesday” thing. I will try to get better, I promise, however Wednesdays always seem to be the busiest days of my life as well as the most boring as far as picture taking is concerned. Still, be prepared to be bombarded with picture awesomeness soon as I’m going to post pictures from the awesome baby shower that I threw for the two pregos at work the other day! 🙂

In the mean time, I will be chatting a bit about a new addiction that is forming, and that is reading other people’s blogs! I don’t know what it is about following the lives of people who are essentually strangers, but I begin to feel close to these women and I genuinely enjoy reading about their days. It makes me feel a little less alienated in my world to know that I’m not the only person on earth that feels the way I feel or thinks about the same mundane stuff. Granted, I have only been reading blogs by women who are mothers as of late, but I still feel a connection. Maybe getting to see a bit into their lives as mommies makes me feel better about my life as a not-yet-mommy, who knows.

In case anyone is interested, here are the blogs I currently find myself reading (and I think you should check out):
Dirty Diaper Laundry (Been reading this one for over a year. Kim is freaking awesome and one of the authorities on Cloth Diapering!)

Pickles & Paisleys

What’s Cookin’

A Few of my Favorite Things (A-freaking-mazing crafty stuff!)

Here Comes The Sun

There are a few more that I’ve been lurking on, but these are my favorites and the ones I check daily. Check them out and let me know of any you like to read as well. 🙂 I Love Blogs!


The power of family October 4, 2010

Filed under: Personal Post — Stephanie Marie @ 10:41 pm

I have never been one that has been super close to my biological family. I’ve always felt different and like I didn’t belong, though I can’t pinpoint when these feelings began or why. I guess it doesn’t really matter. Long story short, I realized at some point in my life that family had nothing to do with sharing blood or DNA, and absolutely everything to do with sharing love and a bond that cannot be broken.

Let me tell you about my family. Yes, I have a biological family and I have in-laws. I love love love my in-laws (so much so that I actually rarely refer to them as in-laws when I introduce them or talk about them)! I can honestly say that my Mother-in-Law is one of my best friends, my Father-in-Law is a wonderfully fun person to be around, and I have two of the best brothers anyone could ever ask for. Let me not forget my wonderful Hubband, Rodney, our “son” Rocky (the meanest tabby cat you’ll ever meat), and our “daughter” Olive (my baby puppy dog). I love my family!

On top of my biological and legal family, I am one of those people who refers to very very close friends as family. Biologically speaking, none of my brothers or sisters have children (and I am cool with that), but I do have a niece, Sarah. Sarah’s mother and I met while working at literally the worst jobs ever, and our husbands became fast friends after realizing that they are basically clones of each other. Our relationships go far beyond friends. These are the people that I would trust with my life and I’d do anything for (something, I hate to say, I have a hard time saying about my biological family), and who I learn so much from. These are the people that will one day be my children’s aunt and uncle, and we’ve chosen (albeit way preemptively) to share the roles of God-parents for those same future children (the other co-God-parents are currently cooking my next niece or nephew in South Carolina and we also consider family).

To end this terribly disjointed post, I leave you with something a very wise woman once said to me: “There’s a family you’re born to, and a family you find.” I’m happy to have found my family in this world, and I wish I had a way of experssing how much I love them, because they deserve to know, but there are just not enough words.


Not being myself? October 2, 2010

Filed under: Uncategorized — Stephanie Marie @ 11:48 pm

I recently had the mother of one of the children I work with tell me that I haven’t seemed like myself recently and that this concerned her. I chalked it up fighting the month-long bronchitis and just being tired, but, I don’t know, maybe I’m really not being myself right now. I’m certainly filled with a lot of emotions that I’ve never really had at any other point in my life and I’m finding myself at a strange crossroads.

I’m hoping that I figure this all out relatively soon and can get back to being “myself.” In the meantime, I guess I’m just going to have to get use to this new not-so-me.